I have a dream, it's a GOAL!!!

Once in a great while, we challenge ourselves with a dream or a goal that seems unreachable.  More often than not, that dream can disappoint us time and time again.  As a child I didn't know what I wanted to be when I grew up.  At times I thought I wanted to be famous. I could sing, but being on American Idol was definitely out of the question.  I am terrified of performing in public.  Yes I did it, but just the thought of the anxiety I get before hand is enough to make me head for the hills.  So I knew I would never win a Grammy.




 



 Then when I got older taking the easiest route for a career seemed the safest. I wanted something I loved showing up for work everyday.  A hairdresser, yeah that didn't work either.  I was never good at school.  I tried my best, and my best came out as a "B" average. No matter how hard I worked, it just wasn't good enough.
Then I had a teacher that took me under her wing and said, "you can do anything you want to!"  That didn't sink in until I turned 30! 
I never had much confidence in myself, so being an Author never crossed my mind.
I always knew I would be a mother.  I am not a great mother by any means.  My house is always dirty, my laundry room is full to the ceiling, my sink is always full of dishes, and the floor is always sticky.  I love my children, they are my world.  I love being a MOM! 
 

 I always knew I wanted to make my mark on the world somehow.  I like to make a difference.  Giving gifts is my favorite.  Just to see the pure joy and surprise on someones face when they recieve a gift is an indescribable feeling. I feel that way when I read.  The author has given me something that cannot be taken away.  They gave me a new world, new characters, and a new perspective.



 

 I love being swallowed up in Jane Austens 'Pride and Predjudice'.  The gowns, the dances, the love story between Mr. Darcy and Ms. Elizabeth, and the culture of something that I won't ever experience outside of her story.  She gave me a world outside of my own to cherish.  She transported me to beautiful England, and away from the piled laundry and dirty dishes.  She drown out the screams and fighting children with sounds of the countryside, and elegant balls and dances.  I became a character in her book. I witnessed Mr. Darcy fall head over hills for the poor girl, and try to win her heart.
I realized my own life was a fairytale, and there were stories in my mind and heart that needed to be told.  I started typing, and making notes, and constantly finding new ways to say things.
I worked for a bookstore, and became friends with the most creative and supportive people.  And if one person had not encouraged me to keep going, I wouldn't be where I am today.  I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up, but I hope it's being an Author and making a difference in other peoples lives.  I hope I can take them away from their problems if only for a moment, and give them a new perspective.  I may not be able to do Anything, but I can do something.  And I choose to write.
I wrote this book when my husband and I had season tickets to REAL SALT LAKE, the MLS team  here in Utah. We are huge fans to say the least. I became very familiar with the players, the coaches, and the staff that worked there.  I may have only met them a few times, but it was enough to spark a story.  I never intended to publish it.  I wrote it for fun.  I continued to write other books and novels, but this year this came back to me as one that needed to be finished.  So I did.  I spent an entire weekend editing it three times, and thought that for an experiment I would put it on amazon.  I just wanted to see how self publishing worked.  I am not good at computer stuff, but with the help of my husband, I got it up.
Now I don't expect to ever be rich, and famous.  Not many authors are or ever will be.  We write for one reason, and one reason only, because we love it.  I will not make alot of money from writing, and I'm ok with that.  I just want to make a difference in someones life, take them away to a new world to escape their own for a bit miserable or not.  I have a dream and a goal.  To brush aside the "B" average girl I once knew and just be SOMEONE! To hold my book in my hands and say "I did this!" Of course I have been disappointed along my journey, but I will keep getting up to make my dream a reality.